One of The Kind

[shattered hologram]

On my journey or fight for survival I sometimes used "DNA deposits" as
the only means to preserve memory from the overall oblivion that would
make all of the experience and suffering futile.

But this in turn, made me a different species. My DNA gradually distanced
from that of a human and I can no longer find a compatible female,
for the sole guilt of surviving the way I knew.

But on the way, I have not lost the hope of returning to the Creator,
no matter how deviant I might have become.

in the LORD
Amen

[shattered hologram]

However, I do feel like a freak, and I wonder if any common church would
care to save me or pray for my soul - I became simply too deviant and
alien for them to care.

I feel more akin to those that are already marginalised, lost or abandoned.
I felt good around the dying, I felt I could give them hope, but now when it
came to me, I don't have such a security.

I guess it doesn't get more honest than this.

So you can take it or leave it. Maybe better leave it now if you cannot take it
and you will leave it later when I learn to depend on you.

in the LORD
Amen

[shattered hologram]

I feel like I don't belong to the human race and I am stranded and left behind
for some old sin I cannot remember. But I am sure it was a great one or I wouldn't
be left here alone.

I feel like Odo turned into one of the solids for punishment.

And it is a divine punishment.

The only way to escape this place is death, provided that they do not get your soul
by some of their allures.

I came to think that we were sent from the upper Universe meant to save this one from
its pitiful demise, but we had our memory wiped and we forgot our role and purpose in
the meantime.

Maybe it was impossible to reincarnate with memories, but it was very important that
we reincarnated and rediscovered our purpose and mission. The Universe will give use
enough guides and clues.

We will obviously have to choose between the higher and the lower energies, never
forgetting that the lower ones are meant to divert us from our purpose. But we will be
exposed to them nevertheless.

Apparently, all the memories from the previous lives are still in us and can be recovered,
but there is a force preventing that from happening.

in the LORD
Amen

[notmyrealname carr]

Post by shattered hologram
I feel like I don't belong to the human race and I am stranded and left behind
for some old sin I cannot remember. But I am sure it was a great one or I wouldn't
be left here alone.
I feel like Odo turned into one of the solids for punishment.
And it is a divine punishment.
The only way to escape this place is death, provided that they do not get your soul
by some of their allures.
I came to think that we were sent from the upper Universe meant to save this one from
its pitiful demise, but we had our memory wiped and we forgot our role and purpose in
the meantime.

Nope.

Post by shattered hologram
Maybe it was impossible to reincarnate with memories, but it was very important that
we reincarnated and rediscovered our purpose and mission. The Universe will give use
enough guides and clues.
We will obviously have to choose between the higher and the lower energies, never
forgetting that the lower ones are meant to divert us from our purpose. But we will be
exposed to them nevertheless.
Apparently, all the memories from the previous lives are still in us and can be recovered,
but there is a force preventing that from happening.

Reincarnation is buddhist bunk.

Post by shattered hologram
in the LORD
Amen

[shattered hologram]

Maybe the female energy (yin) was predetermined to keep us all in this fallen Universe
from before Time was conceived or invented.

Maybe that's the reason why it is so effective on us. But the attraction for the same sex
is yet another diversion from the Path.

The truth is to stay loyal to the higher Purpose.

Am I meant to save the fallen or are they just a distraction from the Path?

They would have said it is just a Messianic idea, and to the far extent they would be right.
You cannot save anyone who doesn't want to be saved.

Is this still in the LORD or have I blasphemed unforgivably?

I will tell you when we get there.

Right now, I do not know.

Everything is blurred, and revealing one's deepest doubts to the Planet doesn't seem like a smart idea,
but what else there is left?

[notmyrealname carr]

Post by shattered hologram
However, I do feel like a freak, and I wonder if any common church would
care to save me or pray for my soul - I became simply too deviant and
alien for them to care.
I feel more akin to those that are already marginalised, lost or abandoned.
I felt good around the dying, I felt I could give them hope, but now when it
came to me, I don't have such a security.
I guess it doesn't get more honest than this.
So you can take it or leave it. Maybe better leave it now if you cannot take it
and you will leave it later when I learn to depend on you.
in the LORD
Amen

Why would you be dying?

[notmyrealname carr]

Post by shattered hologram
On my journey or fight for survival I sometimes used "DNA deposits" as
the only means to preserve memory from the overall oblivion that would
make all of the experience and suffering futile.
But this in turn, made me a different species. My DNA gradually distanced
from that of a human and I can no longer find a compatible female,
for the sole guilt of surviving the way I knew.

Dude you are getting worse.

Post by shattered hologram
But on the way, I have not lost the hope of returning to the Creator,
no matter how deviant I might have become.

Repent of your deviance.

Post by shattered hologram
in the LORD
Amen