shattered hologram
2022-12-03 16:05:23 UTC
A couple of days ago I stored the biowaste in the appropriate container. As there was a spot on the balcony left, I said to myself: it is better to clean this up before it dries and becomes hardened dirt from biowaste.
Then I was choosing which cleaning fluid to use. Domestic product "Sanitar" has too much chlorine for the kitchen and the balcony, but recently bought "Mr. Proper" seemed like just the tool for the job!
I was commended by the voices as "functioning better", but it gave the impression like that security and the psychiatry are omniscient, all-seeing watchers and gods.
And greedy gods they are, greedy for the property of those whom they were supposed to mend and protect. A person with mental illness can be in one of the most vulnerable states a man can be: even an inmate of a prison, Death Row or a concentration camp knows where they are and has some hope of getting out.
I recall those days, weeks, months and years now, and I realise that part of me remained there, locked for good.
I am out of the ward, but just an outpatient, not a free citizen with restored human rights.
Indeed, someone will plead for Death Row inmates an most if not all inmates of a concentration camp will be considered victims, heroes and survivors.
"Mental health system", on the contrary, deprives you of all that dignity and pride.
And it doesn't seem to have a way of restoration and pardon, for even Pontius Pilate pardoned those sentenced to death for murder (most notably Barabas). Not the mental health system.
Mentally diagnosed with schizophrenia is labelled for life, and even his offspring is suspected if he is one of the rare to have it at all, like in very primitive mammal species or some cannibal tribe, which secludes those "possessed by demons".
Totem is offered in the form of a mind drug injection or pill, after which sacrifice both gods, angels and demons seem satisfied and fed like Cuculkhan, Seth, or Moloch.
Shouldn't have Creator provided something better for the most vulnerable? For even his church believes that exactly the psyhiatrist should treat the mostl mentally injured and that they get what they deserve, somehow being evil and guilty for no one good would be possessed?
In Christ
Mirsad
Then I was choosing which cleaning fluid to use. Domestic product "Sanitar" has too much chlorine for the kitchen and the balcony, but recently bought "Mr. Proper" seemed like just the tool for the job!
I was commended by the voices as "functioning better", but it gave the impression like that security and the psychiatry are omniscient, all-seeing watchers and gods.
And greedy gods they are, greedy for the property of those whom they were supposed to mend and protect. A person with mental illness can be in one of the most vulnerable states a man can be: even an inmate of a prison, Death Row or a concentration camp knows where they are and has some hope of getting out.
I recall those days, weeks, months and years now, and I realise that part of me remained there, locked for good.
I am out of the ward, but just an outpatient, not a free citizen with restored human rights.
Indeed, someone will plead for Death Row inmates an most if not all inmates of a concentration camp will be considered victims, heroes and survivors.
"Mental health system", on the contrary, deprives you of all that dignity and pride.
And it doesn't seem to have a way of restoration and pardon, for even Pontius Pilate pardoned those sentenced to death for murder (most notably Barabas). Not the mental health system.
Mentally diagnosed with schizophrenia is labelled for life, and even his offspring is suspected if he is one of the rare to have it at all, like in very primitive mammal species or some cannibal tribe, which secludes those "possessed by demons".
Totem is offered in the form of a mind drug injection or pill, after which sacrifice both gods, angels and demons seem satisfied and fed like Cuculkhan, Seth, or Moloch.
Shouldn't have Creator provided something better for the most vulnerable? For even his church believes that exactly the psyhiatrist should treat the mostl mentally injured and that they get what they deserve, somehow being evil and guilty for no one good would be possessed?
In Christ
Mirsad